Date Written: 14 November 2019
I let you into my heart space so that you could grow
You reached out with your hand rather than your soul
And gripped my heart so I would feel like I was losing control
You were the only one who bothered to stay though
All the others I let in took their piece of my heart space and left
Leaving me stranded and utterly alone
And you were going to do that too
Until I gripped your hand with mine to make a union from two
You then clung harder to my heart
As I clung harder to you
Your grip became toxic on my heart
And my grip became toxic to you
You wanted me to let you go
So you squeezed my heart farther than it was supposed to go
My heart burst as I clung to your hand
But my grip was weak so you took your chance and left
You left me stranded with a broken heart
You left me and now sorrow fills my soul
Now you stand before me again
Offering me your heart instead of your hand
I then looked at the shambles of my heart and formed a plan
A plan that replaced my sorrow with heaviness and dread
And now every time I look at you and see myself smile
I remember the pain of your words and how you broke the love I gave to you
You now want me to apologize for pain I have caused you
But in order for me to do that I’d have to find it in myself to forgive you
And I wish I could say I am sorry
For breaking your heart like you broke mine
But I cannot and will not
Until you find it within yourself
To be the better version of you than you are right now
Because the person you have become
Is not the friend that became my family
You’re now just a stranger to my soul