Date Written: 25 May 2016
Here I am in this mass of quicksand
Staring up into this world of light shining through leaves and tree branches
Sinking further and further as this hole full of quicksand expands
Throw in cattle, rushed words, and miniscule voices
That scrutinize my thoughts
And test my faith that I am alive
That I am awake
When really I’m just sleeping
Dreaming of flying so high
To a nightmare falling
Fumbling over my own feet
Into this small spring of sand
Sitting nonchalantly right in front of me
It sticks to my feet
And pulls weight down onto my shoulders
As others use me as leverage to get higher
Or rather, get out of this hell hole
I’m more than a foot stuck under
Waist deep
Thigh deep
It’s all the same to me: I’m in deep
I’m in deep and sinking further
Like a drawbridge except I part downwards, never drawing up
Then here comes the whisk of wind that makes me feel alright
Tickling my ears and cupping my back of head in it’s elusive hand
Stroking my hair
Telling me it will all be over soon
My support is here
Here with me
Me
But not you
Because you and I inhabit the same body
The same smile
The same laugh
The same health problems
The same in every way
Except, the only difference being
A part of me has died
While a part of you struggles to revive
The little girl crying on the inside
Every time she fails
Fumbles
Falls
And dies
Welcome to the Darkness
How will you survive?